how i deal with my hearing disability
It has been a while since I last wrote a blog. I had some issues with my college work. I was into this idea that I might not get my degree on time, but after consulting with my department advisor, she helped me to get my mind sorted and make a way through. So it's getting better.
I used to think that I am hearing disabled, that I am not accommodated for the class, and that I would not be able to take up education again because of the classroom structure where I have to sit and listen (which I certainly cannot since I cannot hear). It made me disheartened. Imagine going to a class and all the thoughts that come inside your head are about how you would not be able to clear the course, that you would never be enough. But to be honest, that's far from the truth.
Now I look at myself from a week ago and myself now, while sitting in the class, I believe it is not even true. You can seek help, take notes from the sincerest student in the class, re-read them instead of wasting time on Twitter, and if you have doubts, ask them to the professor the next day. You would be fine. If you tell your professor you have problems hearing, then they would even go out of their way and help you deal with the situation by taking extra sessions for you to teach you important concepts.
I was just wrong and skeptical about my whole condition, that I could never really come to terms with the situation inside my head. But it's just the script that you are playing inside your head. Damn, flip it. You tell yourself you are miserable and you would be miserable. You tell yourself you are not in a good space and seek help, the mind will be aware of the opportunities and will find you the right one, and give it to you.
It's all a script inside your head. Say to yourself, you enjoy whatever you understand in the class, you love learning about whatever concept the professor is teaching you, and you would do well. If you have gaps, there's the professor, LLMs, friends — all there to help you out. Why do you give up inside the head even before the world tries to pull you down?
Update (11 June, 2025):
Still struggling to get degree on time and life keeps dropping bombs,
Last updated: 11 June, 2025